Are you driven by your head or your heart? Or maybe by something else? How do you balance the conflicting forces for how to be?
I am driven by my heart, for sure. I will even almost do something totally illogical just to follow my impulsive, crazy heart. I am talking about the “big” things. But, usually cooler heads prevail, and I do the “right” (bor-ing!!!!) thing. I hate it and I am always in conflict, trying to live free but having to bow down to living somewhat conservatively. I never wanted to be this way. Living like this makes things so unbearable for me because I am really not that way at all. It’s a huge internal battle all the time, and a lot of times I can’t stand it.